Frankly, hasn’t been anything wild or big about it of late. Training this year has gone off the rails, and I’m trying to get back on track. I miss being on track. I miss swimming.
Ever had things go to crap? I started the year off well – this time last year I was pumped, planned, ready to go. Then one thing happened, then another, and another, and before I knew it, I was barely swimming at all. Forget long swims, forget racing. Year down the drain.
I know, whiny, right? I agree. Sometimes you have to just get your shit together and get back in the game. So enough of being cryptic, here’s the deal: it started with time off for work travel, then mourning the death of a beloved pet, and the joyful but hectic adoption of a rescue puppy, topped off with extreme fatigue from insomnia and sleep apnea. They all took their toll, and not sleeping was a real sucker punch. I could barely keep my eyes open while taking puppy on her morning potty walk, I felt like I was sleepwalking. And let’s not even talk about the weight gain, at least not here, not now. Later. So I stopped swimming, it was easy, I told myself I’d skip it now and make up for it later. I started feeling bad for not going, then like a outsider when I did, and I pretty much just stopped going all together. I have yet to cancel my big 24km race in Vermont, that’s on my dreaded to-do list. I just couldn’t get back on track fast enough to train properly, and racing a marathon distance swim unprepared is a risk I won’t take.
And so here I am, starting over. Which is ok. Kinda has to be. The sleep apnea is on its way to being under control, I’m still working on the insomnia, but at least I’m awake when I’m awake now. A few weeks ago, I started swimming open water again with the usual summer swim gang, which has got me pumped. I missed those guys, swimming with friends in wild, big open waters is the best. No lanes, no lines, as they say. And I’m volunteering as a swim angel for a local race this weekend, so there’s that. I’m feeling better.
24km races can wait. They’ll still be there when I’m ready.